Obey your spiritual leaders and do what they say. Their work is to watch over your souls, and they know they are accountable to God. Give them reason to do this joyfully and not with sorrow. That would certainly not be for your benefit. (Heb. 13:17, NLT)
I have always been uncomfortable with the whole authority thing in pastoral leadership. I don't want to be a tyrant or anything, and I don't like to see people be dominated or over-awed. To a point, I guess I don't want to stick out or be "special" in that way. But I am realizing, slowly, that being a pastor means I am different. Not better, but different, and I need to get comfortable wit being different.
Sometimes I will get all "aw shucks" and I think its because I want to be a "regular guy". I am that by personality, but I think sometimes I over do it, over-compensate for my calling. I end up making myself look frivolous, and that doesn't give glory to God.
I do still have some work with getting comfortable with my calling, who I am.
thankfully, I am in a wonderful church which truly supports me, and wants me to grow. Not change who I am, but to grow into who I am. Big difference. I thank God for my church. The people give me reason to be joyful in my service every day.